can you help me

What is your difficulty? My difficulty at first was that I did not put Jesus first before everything. I was still living for this world. After I put Jesus first in my life it was like I started over again. I am not sure how he did it but I am glad he did.

every one has .. must start to beleave and love at free will..
God has his own time and we do not know when our time start.Jesus come to us mostly at the usual places like churge seremonies as the Holy Gost reach out to us.Never
give up hoping and praying.

The first thing you should do is go or find a church where you know you can feel comfortable (big or small) Pray and read your bible everyday. Join groups in your church that way you are around others who know GOD and Jesus can help you when you are having difficulties. Satan is everywhere and he wants you to fail. Don't open one window of opportunity for him to enter. Have faith in the one true GOD who will never leave or forsake you. It is hard but wtihout HIM in our lives life is difficult enough. Put your Armor of God outfit on I do mostly everyday. Can't go out into the world without it.